i'm so excited to be new. to feel reborn in some way. to start over. i plan to go shopping on friday, but i'm just so excited, that i can't wait. i'd say it's pretty perfect timing. wanting to feel reborn and focus on your life when someone near has passed. i have a funeral for relative this weekend. it has made me weirdly excited. i'm not excited for the funeral, at all. i'm excited for my own life. excited to focus on my growth and my will to live. excited to dive into a closer relationship no matter how difficult it shall be. life is difficult. as of tonight, i'm over fearing the difficulty.
i say that, and yet in a couple days i will probably admit that i am scared of what's to come, as usual. but i guess that's healthy, to admit your fear. it's new to me. admitting fear.
i'm usually a stone. as of late, i've had to deal with the fact that i am a stone. the fact that i have a wall built but it needs to be broken down.
i'm working on it. hence my willingness to deal with difficulty.
because of this, i'm intensely scatterbrained. can't even really put a cohesive blog together. haven't been able to for a few days. and yet, i needed, wanted to share. i'm scatterbrained. i want to shop. i'm ready to deal with difficulties. when i say i'm ready, i'm willing, but maybe not prepared. diving in anyway.
i don't really have words of wisdom, but pinterest always does. here are some words that best describe what's going on in the life and mind of katie. XD
-k
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